Wednesday, September 12, 2007
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So I am not sure what is going on lately but I've all the sudden had a huge desire to get married, date, something intimate with a boy. I do know that is highly impossible right now considering I know absolutely no guys here in Abilene and my other guy friends I'm not ready to date or don't want to date. I understand the basic reason for these feelings but they really do suck a whole lot. You know I just came to a realization I don't think it's specifically wanting a guy like I thought it was (though that’s how it appears) but it's the fact I don't get hugs. Touch is a vital thing as a human. People need to be touched and loved on physically. There is a saying that says you need 4 hugs a day to keep from going insane. Well maybe these random feelings of wanting a guy when it’s totally not realistic are my cry of insanity from not receiving enough hugs. Yeah I can totally see and feel that. The reason I do want a boy would be to cuddle, to touch not in a bad way but just that actual contact with another human. The more I think about it, I do believe that is the reason I like so many covers at night, the weight and warmth is something like human touch. It's totally why I don't wanna get out of bed and why I've wanted so many naps when I know I'm getting more than enough sleep. Well at least I now know the issue; I wish I knew the answer....
Posted by Mary at
7:16 PM
