Wednesday, September 12, 2007
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I do so enjoy wearing Goth clothing. I really am more comfortable this way. I feel like I can be me though I hate to say it but the world really does affect this aspect of my life. As much as I like wearing all black cute clothing it really just is not accepted first from Christians, then in the work place, and really anywhere but specific areas. Honestly that is very sad. I wore some of my Goth clothes today simply because I wanted to have the feeling of being me here. Well no one really looked down on it (besides slightly my work but that’s a long funny story and part of the reason I love working there lol) but at the same time people weren't really accepting of it either. I was walking to my cross training class and people would turn away from me and Try not to stare, kinda of interesting how when I wear certain clothing I'm all the sudden not” normal" and it becomes awkward. Granted this is something I am very used to when I wear these clothes but it just hit funny when I was walking. In all honesty that caused a reaction that has never happened while wearing these clothes before. I actually played the part of the stereotype. I became more closed off more hating the world ish if that makes sense. It scared me a little. It was totally fine after that but it was an interesting few minutes. I very much wish I could just be this person who wears these clothes and feels just confident in that but the world really does just influence that too much to be possible. It draws too much attention, and is stereotyped to the point that it would hurt who I'm trying so hard to be for Christ. Tis a sad realization when one realizes that something simple like clothing really does effect (either helping or hurting) your witness.
Posted by Mary at
7:04 PM
