Wednesday, December 29, 2004
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Well Hello everyone who actually still reads this. I know that the last entry was a quite harsh but that's my feelings and no one can take those away. Most of the time no one can change them either that's just how things go. So anyway enough about that. I hope everyone had a great Christmas and didn't get too wrapped up in the gifts more in the meaning of the gifts/ reason we're giving gifts. If you want to know about my experience with 21 people in my grandparents house do just ask and you will hear many accounts of how weird my family really is. I'm so not ready for school yet. I have to read a BA book and well instead of being smart and taking one I just took my pleasure book and read that. OH well. This last 18 weeks of public required school shall be weird. I hope nothing to bad happens. I hope I get accepted to college. I guess we'll just see where God wants me to be.
It's so weird to think that I might actually become a minister. Kinda one of those almost duhs to some people but it completely shocks me sometimes. Though it seems like just about every day I'm coming up with different ideas for out reaches as a minister. I can't wait to be honest. I think this is something I will truly love my whole life. I'm scared about college. What I'll be exposed to what standards will be set at the school I will go to and the standards of a religious major. Kinda scary if you think about it.
I know so many people who "explore" at college but I don't see the need to explore. So many times there are examples of what happens in the "exploring, why can't people learn from others mistakes. I still don't know what to think about alcohol. I mean I know I won't ever drink any more than a sip to taste (I like knowing what it tastes like just so I know and don't need to drink a whole think to learn). Yet I know not what to think of friends drinking or significant others drinking and what is to much and what is ok. I guess this is something I'll be struggling with for a while.
Well that's totally not where I meant this to go but you know how minds just wander and whatever is on your mind it what seems to come out in the writing here. I guess that's the only way to be really honest is just to spout out what you think and just let your fingers type. Rather dangerous at the same time though and for me being a rather shy person I sure do say a lot of personal things here don't I. I'm not sure why maybe it's cuz while I'm typing I don't think about who reads this I just type. Maybe it's because I need to get these things out yet talking isn't always the way to do that cuz it won't come up or you just don't want to specifically talk to someone. Which ever the reason it comes out here and I hope whoever reads this knows that I do that.
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