Wednesday, September 22, 2004
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Ok well I didn't get the chance to share this is small group this evening so I want to share it here. Tonight we discussed Prayer. First off we asked why should we pray if God knows everything. Well as shown as an example prayer has changed God's mind about something while knowing that how could God then know everything if His mind can be changed? Well here is my beliefs I know many people don't believe this but it's what I've felt is the answer. I don't think God knows everything in some ways. I think God knows exactly what will happen with every choice you make down to am I going to sleep in this morning or get up earlier. While He knows what would happen with each side of the choice I don't believe He knows what choice we are going to make. I don't think it would be free will that way nor do I think He would change His mind if that were the case nor do I think He would rejoice in our choices the way He does when we choose to love Him if He knew already we were going to. This is also how I believe hope from God comes into play. Other wise how would hope exist if God Himself could not feel this emotion. SO that's my take on that.
Next we talked about dumb prayers. Well this really just made me think of my growth with prayer. I started out when I was little saying bed time prayers and meal prayers and those were so special but that's all I understood how to pray. Therefore praying a prayer that wasn't already set for me was very difficult. So in 5th grade I took a Catholic rosary that my Catholic babysitters gave me(more on that if you wanna know). When I was struggling I would read prayers out of that and say rosaries not as a repentance but as a comfort that I could pray to God and not feel lost. This was so much apart of the beginning of my faith walk. It impacted me in ways I don't know if I'll ever be able to share but it truly was amazing. After 5th grade when we moved down here that book and the rosary got stuffed away somewhere and well that was my bad stage as I like to call it( more on that if you wanna know again). Now when I got to high school my faith was really rediscovered. I know it began in middle school this rediscovery but it wasn't stable or active until high school. Well as far as prayer went I was sooo def. Uncomfortable doing it at all. As I went to youth I got more comfortable with the idea of praying by myself and that was cool but I knew something was lacking. Then I had some amazing experiences with individuals praying with me. Man that is one powerful tool from God. (more if you wanna know). Really just this year to be totally honest was I ever ok praying in groups. Now I love praying with the mic in hand for the whole group and praying in small group is almost a breeze now. I let God do the talking and all works out. I tell Him before I start my concerns for the prayer and He just speaks it's so cool I love it. Now I know I have many places to go with my personal prayer walk such as praying for things that seem small that's always bugged me kinda, and praying for someone one on one ect.. So I just wanted to share that it's something I've never shared with anyone before so feel special reading this. It's A girl A God and life hehe. Byes God Bless you all!!
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