Saturday, September 25, 2004
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People are interesting
Posted by Mary at
11:28 AM
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
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Ok well I didn't get the chance to share this is small group this evening so I want to share it here. Tonight we discussed Prayer. First off we asked why should we pray if God knows everything. Well as shown as an example prayer has changed God's mind about something while knowing that how could God then know everything if His mind can be changed? Well here is my beliefs I know many people don't believe this but it's what I've felt is the answer. I don't think God knows everything in some ways. I think God knows exactly what will happen with every choice you make down to am I going to sleep in this morning or get up earlier. While He knows what would happen with each side of the choice I don't believe He knows what choice we are going to make. I don't think it would be free will that way nor do I think He would change His mind if that were the case nor do I think He would rejoice in our choices the way He does when we choose to love Him if He knew already we were going to. This is also how I believe hope from God comes into play. Other wise how would hope exist if God Himself could not feel this emotion. SO that's my take on that.
Next we talked about dumb prayers. Well this really just made me think of my growth with prayer. I started out when I was little saying bed time prayers and meal prayers and those were so special but that's all I understood how to pray. Therefore praying a prayer that wasn't already set for me was very difficult. So in 5th grade I took a Catholic rosary that my Catholic babysitters gave me(more on that if you wanna know). When I was struggling I would read prayers out of that and say rosaries not as a repentance but as a comfort that I could pray to God and not feel lost. This was so much apart of the beginning of my faith walk. It impacted me in ways I don't know if I'll ever be able to share but it truly was amazing. After 5th grade when we moved down here that book and the rosary got stuffed away somewhere and well that was my bad stage as I like to call it( more on that if you wanna know again). Now when I got to high school my faith was really rediscovered. I know it began in middle school this rediscovery but it wasn't stable or active until high school. Well as far as prayer went I was sooo def. Uncomfortable doing it at all. As I went to youth I got more comfortable with the idea of praying by myself and that was cool but I knew something was lacking. Then I had some amazing experiences with individuals praying with me. Man that is one powerful tool from God. (more if you wanna know). Really just this year to be totally honest was I ever ok praying in groups. Now I love praying with the mic in hand for the whole group and praying in small group is almost a breeze now. I let God do the talking and all works out. I tell Him before I start my concerns for the prayer and He just speaks it's so cool I love it. Now I know I have many places to go with my personal prayer walk such as praying for things that seem small that's always bugged me kinda, and praying for someone one on one ect.. So I just wanted to share that it's something I've never shared with anyone before so feel special reading this. It's A girl A God and life hehe. Byes God Bless you all!!
Posted by Mary at
7:24 PM
Sunday, September 19, 2004
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ok So I hate to announce this but I'm not getting copies of these pics the better ones that I pass out come later guys. Sorry. These were just for the yearbook and for fun hehe. I will get copies to look at and pick which one I wt for the yearbook which ya'll can see but yeah no keeping any.
Posted by Mary at
2:20 PM
Saturday, September 18, 2004
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SO lets see I haven't updated in a while sorry. I don't think I'm going to update on most of my activities just cuz I'm mean and don't wanna. But I will tell you I got a homecoming queen nomination which I don't think I'll make court but that's ok. It's fun to say I was nominated. Then I got my senior pictures done for the year book today. Those were interesting. Took a while to do them. I wore the dress I had for freshman prom with David. I still really love the color on me. The guy kept looking at me weird and saying stupid jokes I was kinda uncomfortable but Katie and my mom were there so it wasn't so bad. I hope they look ok. We also went to Koles and got some work clothes cuz I start work the 27th not far away. Well yeah so that's the updating I felt like doing with activities. SO yeah. School is going fine. I think I have pretty good grades in all but Cromwell and yeah that's just me being me hehe. This next week is the last in the 6 weeks rather scary if you ask me. I'm 5 six weeks away from graduation and going to college. AHHHHH. Goodness. I wonder what God has planed. There are MANY different directions at the moment some more immediate effects than others but yeah Should be interesting. I soo missed going to bible study and choir. I love being so involved in the church. While it has it's little stresses they really aren't stressful just cuz I know God does amazing things especially since that's where He is most accepted. I stress more at school I think cuz most of the people there don't accept God so He is not shown through them because they will not let Him. Which on the outward appearance seem He's not there as much. I know He really is but it just doesn't seem as such. So that's my babbling on that. I think I shall go now I hope that wasn't too long or boring but you know me. Tootles God bless
Posted by Mary at
11:28 AM
Monday, September 13, 2004
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MOMMY IS HOME!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!! SO much less stress you wouldn't believe it. hehehe. So yeah I'm staying up late cuz I'm a dork even though I know I'm sick. Le sigh Tomorrow will be hard I have a quiz in economics and then Cromwell with teachers aid then photo j so ok not too to bad but I do have to think and come up with something to do during my aid period I think I'll ask if I can go help Mrs Gumpl she kinda needs it. I love her though she is good to talk to. So is Kelly man we had a great talk after the YLT meeting!!! I love Kelly to death!!! Ok well enough of my babble back to psychology tootles!
Posted by Mary at
9:12 PM
Friday, September 10, 2004
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Humm lets see. What to say. Rents are coming home soon and I dare say while I am still in school I need my rents. I don't want to have kids anytime soon they are too much hassle and my sisters are well mannered and older than any young children and it's all too much while I have school work church and soon a job. So yeah that is my realization that I really already knew it's just more apparent now. SO yeah that's all I can think to say my life right now it rather routinely but it does need to be at the moment. Hopefully soon I'll be in the better swing of things once my mom comes back and responsibility is relieved. So that be it. Ta
Posted by Mary at
7:41 PM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
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A poem I wrote last week.
No title yet if you think of one lemmie know.
When no one is there,
God is
Who cares?
God does
Why me?
God knows
No one would miss me,
God would
I'm invisible,
God sees you
What love?
God's love
I'm afraid,
God will comfort
There is chaos,
God is Peace
So much Hate,
God is kindness/love
I'm too busy
God knows no time
I am empty
God will replenish
I'm hungry,
God provides
I'm sick,
God will heal
I need to talk,
God will listen
Who needs me?
God does
When no one is there,
GOD IS
Posted by Mary at
7:51 PM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
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Humm been two days Totally doesn't feel like it at all. Weird hu. So lets see. Not much new. This weekend is 9-11 which is weird cuz no one has said anything about it or at least not that I've heard. I wonder what will go on that day. It's on a Sat so we won't be in school. Hummm curious. SO yeah life is good I love church it makes me happy. Hw suxs and I'm getting all addicted to AIM again which I REALLY need to not do. But when I'm stuck at home I donno. We shall see I might have to delete it again. Well I best be of I have BA calling me PUKE lol
Posted by Mary at
8:19 PM
Sunday, September 05, 2004
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Ok so let see what to write about. I'm playing mommy this week. Which is kinda interesting though my old cousin is here too so it's not really like I'm the only one here or anything but yeah. I so just wanna dance today. I found my lost Bebo CD and I have his new one so I'm just all tickled pink lol. I have a BA to do and I'd really rather not. Though the bad part is I donno where my book went so quotes might be a tad hard lol. Oh well. We shall see what happens. I GOT OUT!!!!!!!! I'm so out of AP bio and SOOO happy. I heard the teacher was crying yesterday it's so sad I feel bad for her. I wish I could help her but I don't think I can she just really wasn't prepared for that class. Well anyway lets see. I haven't been able to read my Nicholas Sparks book Kinda depressing really but I just haven't had time. So ya know. I keep learning things about myself it's kinda interesting. You know how it is to learn about some new friend or something it's kinda like that but with myself at the moment. Maybe I'm over analyzing myself but ya know lol. Juile and I decided that we don't sign enough. Which I agree we used to all the time and much less now. Though I did pretend to be deaf when we went to her work with all the mechanics lol. It was kinda funny. I wasn't to good at it lol. But they all spoke Spanish anyway so it's not like I could understand them so why should they have the privilege of understanding me that seems unfair to me. so yeah. I totally love Mrs. Gumple!! She is so nice and has already counseled me a little. It's really nice. Anyway I'm a high school dork this whole update is about school YUCK. Ok well I'm gonna go I think my cousin David should be here soon Tootles God Bless
Smile it's God's gift!!
Posted by Mary at
12:51 PM
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
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Ok well I haven't updated in forever so I think I shall. I've been sooo incredibly busy you wouldn't believe it. Well some people do cuz I tell them constantly and am with them constantly but that's all good I love those people. So anyway. Nothing exciting has happened today just yet. I'm sure I'll get a story or two at WNL I usually do. Though I know for a fact tonight will be hard and I'm not looking forward to it. Mainly cuz I have lots of hw to do when I get back and I don't know if I'm going to be able to do it. Sigh. Well anyway. Lancie is a dork wanna know about that ask. Cromwell's class got cut short made me upset. I didn't like that at all and it was for some stupid assembly that stunk. Though I did get to sit with Dan which was good I miss that guy sometimes. Though sitting with him made me think of someone else and that someone else was in my mind all day kinda making it hard to concentrate lol, But that's ok. Ap bio was well interesting. We went down to the creek without being told we were doing so, so hardly anyone was dressed correctly. I probably got poison ivy or something oh well. Photo J was informative but that's it. SO yeah nothing interesting just a lot of babble. SO I'll leave you with babble for now. Byes God Bless
Mary
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3:29 PM
