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OK so James is a ROYAL ASS HOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know most of you know during middle school I was suicidal well no worries now I'm fine found my faith through that. I always had a strong base in faith through my rents but that's when I made my faith my own I have no regrets from it or that time in my life. I would not want to live it again however it's made me who I am and God had a plan for that. Since I have helped people in similar situations or getting close to that situation. It's created a great understanding for me. HOWEVER. My Mother would find it a SERIOUS character flaw and would blame herself for it when in reality it really isn't her fault. So in result of that I never told her about it she didn't need to know and still doesn't need to know about it. James thought it would be a good idea to tell her today though using it as part of one of his stupid arguments and now my mom has certain thoughts about me and my behavior. TOTALLY messing up my relationship with her now. HE HAS NO FUCKING RIGHT TO DO THAT TO ME DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He can fuck up his own damn relationship with our rents but can't he leave mine alone. I was happy where it was, they were happy with where it was. WHY THE HELL DOES HE THINK HE HAS THE RIGHT TO FUCK UP OUR RELATIONS TRYING TO MAKE A DAMN POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT!!!!!!!!!! Now all this is being brought up again and I can see the hurt in my mom's eyes when she asked me about it. I don't want to hurt her. I'm past it. Now I know she will question her ability to be a mother like she does with James. DAMN IT HE NEEDS TO FUCK OFF Freakin marry Holly and get the hell out of our lives. He only messes everything up. I can't wait until he goes to college so we don't have this crap anymore. Ok I'm done venting for right now however I'm still upset venting isn't going to help with that. If ya'll who read this could pray for peace in my family it would mean the world to me. Thank you. God Bless.
Posted by Mary at
1:20 PM
