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Well it's a new day and I feel like I can babble some more aren't you excited hehe. I got invited to a b-day party up in Valley Mills , if you know me well enough you know who I'm talking about that would invite me. I kinda wanna go but my mom said no. Though I totally understand her reasoning. I still want to send the person something though I have NO clue what. Oh well. I guess I'll try to find something. Elke's b-day is coming up also I found a cute present at Wally World but I donno if that's what I should get her or not but it's funny. Maybe I'll let James get it for her. Anyway
I feel like I need a nap. But I'm to lazy to take one lol. I'm so pathetic. Oh well. You know the oddest thing I've found is thinking about people you don't know very well. I end up thinking about what I know about them and seems wonderful but then I think about people who think that way about me and don't know the whole story. So at the same time it just makes me wonder ya know. Kinda makes me wanna have AIM again cuz I know that's an easy way to talk to people a lot and get to know their views at least. Though nothing can replace seeing in person and just hanging out. Humm.
I'm kinda ready for school to start amazingly enough. While I'm totally not prepared for it to start, I'm kinda mentally ready. Which I guess is a good thing. Though I have NO clue what to expect sense I half of my classes have new teachers this year. That scares me some. I like hearing things about teachers and knowing what to expect from the class before I go into it. But I guess God is really working on my wanting to be prepared for everythingness. YLT retreat was HARD for me to pack for cuz I had No clue what all we were going to do. Now Kelly and Adam are having WAY too much fun not telling us all the events that are going on. So yeah I guess that's what God is doing cuz it certainly is driving me CRAZY!! Sigh.
I need to find someone to do a weekly devo with. I was thinking of asking Nikki or Sam but I'm kinda open on the subject right now. All I know is that I really need to start one and would like someone to do it with. I also want someone to just go walking with in the morning someone who is not so physically fit (cuz I'm not so fit myself). I know a bunch of my friends have offered to do bike rides and such but they are the ones that intimidate me with that kinda thing and it makes me shy away from it. So I just need to find a buddy for that. Wow you can really tell I've started to notice I need help with this stuff that I can't do it alone which is a good thing I realize this but it's a lot I can't do. Makes me worry, but at the same time I think part of it is God making me need others. Which I haven't felt I needed others before (I know that's selfish but honestly I am kinda selfish, it's something I struggle with).
Well ok so that's quite enough of me pouring my heart out to a computer for people to read. (now I feel a little retarded but who said I'm not right.) byes God bless
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11:50 AM
