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Well it's a new day and I feel like I can babble some more aren't you excited hehe. I got invited to a b-day party up in Valley Mills , if you know me well enough you know who I'm talking about that would invite me. I kinda wanna go but my mom said no. Though I totally understand her reasoning. I still want to send the person something though I have NO clue what. Oh well. I guess I'll try to find something. Elke's b-day is coming up also I found a cute present at Wally World but I donno if that's what I should get her or not but it's funny. Maybe I'll let James get it for her. Anyway
I feel like I need a nap. But I'm to lazy to take one lol. I'm so pathetic. Oh well. You know the oddest thing I've found is thinking about people you don't know very well. I end up thinking about what I know about them and seems wonderful but then I think about people who think that way about me and don't know the whole story. So at the same time it just makes me wonder ya know. Kinda makes me wanna have AIM again cuz I know that's an easy way to talk to people a lot and get to know their views at least. Though nothing can replace seeing in person and just hanging out. Humm.
I'm kinda ready for school to start amazingly enough. While I'm totally not prepared for it to start, I'm kinda mentally ready. Which I guess is a good thing. Though I have NO clue what to expect sense I half of my classes have new teachers this year. That scares me some. I like hearing things about teachers and knowing what to expect from the class before I go into it. But I guess God is really working on my wanting to be prepared for everythingness. YLT retreat was HARD for me to pack for cuz I had No clue what all we were going to do. Now Kelly and Adam are having WAY too much fun not telling us all the events that are going on. So yeah I guess that's what God is doing cuz it certainly is driving me CRAZY!! Sigh.
I need to find someone to do a weekly devo with. I was thinking of asking Nikki or Sam but I'm kinda open on the subject right now. All I know is that I really need to start one and would like someone to do it with. I also want someone to just go walking with in the morning someone who is not so physically fit (cuz I'm not so fit myself). I know a bunch of my friends have offered to do bike rides and such but they are the ones that intimidate me with that kinda thing and it makes me shy away from it. So I just need to find a buddy for that. Wow you can really tell I've started to notice I need help with this stuff that I can't do it alone which is a good thing I realize this but it's a lot I can't do. Makes me worry, but at the same time I think part of it is God making me need others. Which I haven't felt I needed others before (I know that's selfish but honestly I am kinda selfish, it's something I struggle with).
Well ok so that's quite enough of me pouring my heart out to a computer for people to read. (now I feel a little retarded but who said I'm not right.) byes God bless
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11:50 AM
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Hello Everyone~
Today was good for me in many ways. First I got out of the house all day!! Man it was kinda nice to do work away from the house. Second I was with wonderful people that was much fun! Third I'm physically better than I had been recently which is GOOD!! Fourth it was all totally work for God the best kind you can do. I can totally see myself doing that kinda thing the rest of my life. Working as a youth administrator and just helping out the church whenever I can. The hard thing will be not using all my pay check in the process helping the church. Of course being an on call interpreter will be nice too so I don't get too wrapped up in the church politics and such. So I really think that's where God is calling me. Though you know how He seems to change people's plans some how I think He'll do that with me. I guess we shall see.
Pizzazz is SOOOO Going to ROCK!! Besides the band all cool stuff is going on. I'm still a bit mad about the band but oh well. The stage is awesome kinda candle and Rome ish. It was lots of fun thinking up ideas and such. I think that's the part I'm best at is just thinking of what to do and how to make it better. Though I seem to work best with Sam. She and I just bounce idea's off each other like none other I've seen. Not only that we execute it well. She is lots more organized than I am and I can easily follow her lead on execution. It's great I love working with her.
Ok well I think I've babbled enough for today Keep smilin it's fun. God Bless
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4:17 PM
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Well I have been officially told to get an Aggie shirt (though I have No idea where to get one) And that I should not fret about weight. Well I'm willing to comply with the Aggie shrit idea however the weight thing I have an argument for. First of all. To be heathy there is a certain weight range and I'm on the edge of it. Second I don't really care about the weight so much as I care that it's fat and not muscle. I know I'm going to start working on it I'm just rather lazy and it's hard for me to get motivated. Thirdly if nothing else besides God you should care about to me it's your health you only have one body and you have to make it last a while. I know it's not long in the scheme of things but still I want to be able to function when I am old so to take care of your body is important. SO there I can worry about my weight hehehe.
If you didn't know I love debating and things like that. As long as you keep emotions out of it it's really fun. Though I know way to many people that turn debates into arguements and that's no fun at all.
So today is rather relaxed I feel like I'm forgetting something though I have no clue what. Sigh I hate when that happens. I had an ortho this morning and wow I don't like going there. You know it's real funny my mom always says how she gets better service at stores when I'm around well I get treated better at doctors offices when she's around. Kinda odd how that works out. That's def one thing I'm going to have a problem getting used to on my own is going to the doc and stuff like that. Dealing with that stuff has never been an easy or fun thing in my mind. But I guess I'll get the hang of it when I have to.
Well I'm threw griping and such So I hope you've had a great day!! Keep smiling you never know who you'll bless with a smile! God Bless
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11:52 AM
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Ok so I'm trying new colors and fonts so if you happen to see one you really like with my blog let me know and I'll use it. Cuz honestly ya'll are the ones who have to read this (well don't have to but do) I just write it.
Ok so today was really much busier than I thought it would be. That's a good thing though it did have a down point. So this morning Julie and I went and did school stuff. Drove by the band with music blaring and yellin at them. We saw someone break attention "FISH hahaha" It was most thrilling hehe. I'm horrible oh well. Then we met up with Janna while waiting in line. Man this year will be fun with those two around hehe. Fun stuff!! Then Julie and I went and got breakfast at 10 something at McDonald's. Yummyness. We got it and went and ate at the duck pond. Then totally reliving the school year we sat out in my car and talked outside her house for like about 30min or so.
Then I went home and here was my down time. Though during this down time I burned a lot of my brothers CD's well actually only four but 3 copies of each one for me one for him and one for Julie. That took a bit. Though I got to read Julie stories!! They are always wonderful I highly recommend asking her about them. Then mom wanted to go shopping so we did and that took a while but I finally got a UT shirt however it's HUGE so I will have to use my sewing skills and make it smaller lol. ( I need to do that with my YLT shirts also ) I also got the new Nicholas Sparks book. Now I'm back up to three of his to read. YAY. As seeing I'm going through them in about a week. I should be done after the first week of school in which case I will have to start reading one for English. YUCK! Oh well. Anyway
I keep thinking that there was something going on this evening but I totally don't member what. I know I'm going to go visit David cuz he has to work until midnight and I think taking him some ice cream would be nice. Make him try rum and pecan mixed with coffee. Man I can almost go to the store and go my usual please and they know what I'm talking about. How sad is that lol. Maybe that's why I've gained ten pounds this summer. Oh well. I've decided that I'm going to make a schedule of my daily activities so that I have it planned to go walking each morning sense I don't have band anymore. Though I would still get to shower and get ready at MY HOUSE hehe. gosh it's nice not thinking about trying to get ready in the ten min Stien would give you.
Well I think that's enough of an update for now. If I have some burning desire to write about a certain topic I will be back if not you'll have to wait until tomorrow tootles!! God Bless
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3:58 PM
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Well Ok so I'll finally stop complaining about college and such lets talk about less stressful stuff yes. I think so. I finished the Wedding. OMGOSH such a cute book. I think guys should read it and take notes then girls should read it for the sweet smiles it gives you. I totally couldn't put it down once I got close to the end it's just like what's next I wanna know lol. So cute. Anyway
Let see this morning I was supposed to have an ortho appointment but he doc had a family emergency so no appointment. Instead I came home read and got ready to go on our little road trip to pick up my sis's. They were with my g-rents up in Abiline and we were meeting half way at Lampassas. I got to drive up there cuz mom was dizzy from her appointment today. So that was fun though I think she was nervous and James was def back seat driving DORK lol. We got there and looked at some cars mom is thinking of down sizing the van when I leave. Then we met them at this Eves Cafe it's a little German place. Really good food I recommend. Kinda funny though has all this weird stuff hanging from the ceiling. Now I'm about to turn in an app. To Outback today hopefully that will go well. :crosses fingers: After that I have a YLT meeting this evening so I've actually had a full day. How exciting right!! I don't have many of those in the summer but yeah.
Next week is Pizzazz how crazy fun is that!!!! I'm excited. Well except for the band I know they sux but oh well. I don't have band this week!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. Though as we were driving by for my ortho I pointed and laughed hehe. My mom was like what?? hehe. That my friends was much fun. Not to mention seeing all the cg girls in attention going I don't' have to go though teaching or learning that again YAY for quitting!!!
Well I best be off I hope everyone has had a wonderful day and smiles lots!! God Bless!!!
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1:24 PM
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SO this next year shall be interesting I've decided. Almost all my teachers retired, I heard Mrs. Baird has something like 6 months to live, I have the SAT's scaring me to death, I have college apps to fill out, I have scholarships to apply for but in all that I CAN GO OFF CAMPUS FOR LUCH YAYAYAY!! hehe. I hope Julie and I have the same lunch I'm not friends with to many other seniors. Our class has a bunch of people I just avoid cuz either I'm not accepted or they really don't care if I jumped off a building. SO yeah that was depressing lets move on.
I like Savage Garden. I haven't listened to them in a while until recently but they really are kinda nice to listen to. Man I've gone over a month without any Bebo WOW. That's amazing. Anyway.
I'm reading the Wedding (thanks Katie!!) It's pretty good. Totally fits me in my hopeless romantic self. Though it is a little depressing in the realization of how hard life on your own will be. Even just seeing my cousin and my brother has really hit me. I kinda wish I knew I'd have someone there for me. I know I shouldn't need anyone I should just rely on God and He will provide but it's hard. I mean I know Julie would always be there for me but what if we go to different colleges which is a def possibility we won't be there for each other. Man it's the same with everyone. I know no one that is going to go to a college I'm looking at. I know I should just stay in G-town and then ACC but DANG IT I want out of Texas.
Well I think I did enough ranting so anyway that's what's been on my mind lately. Besides some privileged info but I think I'm only tellin Julie that hehe (she knows what I'm talkin about hehe) Well tootles GOd BLess
Posted by Mary at
4:49 PM
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Well... I haven't written in a while so I guess I should update some. Not much has happened I've had a lot of family over and little time to myself but that's ok I'll live. I really miss some people I haven't seen over the summer but school is soon enough I guess. I seem to be really tired a lot lately and I'm not totally sure why. Though I drank some coffee today and I got sleepy then I wonder if coffee and caffeine just make me more sleepy. Or maybe it's the not really doing anything productive that might be it too. Humm I think I might try to go off caffeine cuz I have no need of it since I don't have marching band anymore. Wow you know how nice it is not to have to worry about band. Not just with the time but also the drama. Wow it's exciting. You know I find it odd how immature I find myself sometimes. I think I'm at least a little grown up and I know some of my thoughts are more grown up but I certainly don't always act that way. Though I'm not to sure how to act any different. A part of me wants to grow up and be mature part of me doesn't really care and part of me just wants to be a kid again. I know I'm still really young but I feel old. I know things that older people know. Well anyway that's enough of my babble. Hope everyone is having a great last few weeks of summer!! Smiles tons!! GOD Bless
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3:31 PM
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You know one of the greatest things is hearing your three year old cousin who has really just gotten to know you for the first time says " Wanna play with me?" Then when she has to leave she says "I love you bye bye" It's so cute. Def not cute enough to want any still but awww just kinda hits you how easy it is for a little girl to accept you for who you are to her and love you just because you'll play with her when she asks you to. I wish I could be like that. Animals are kinda the same way which brings about more questions of instinct. Is it really our instinct to love freely and easily and our society just changes it that much?? Wow that's kinda hit home for me. God's intent and instinct He gave us was to truly love one another unconditionally yet our society and our world sees it so differently. Everything comes with a price, everything has to benefit me somehow. That's really depressing to think about yet hopeful in the fact that our instinct is to love and be loved in return we just have to find it and return to the instinct we once lived by.
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11:40 AM
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OK SO i hate being a senior already!! How sad is that. I guess it's part cuz i was expecting to hate being a senior but it's just gotten worse. I want this whole picking and applying to a college to be done with. It's gross and discusting and HOW THE HELL DO I FUCKING CHOOSE ONE?!?!??!?!? WHy the Hell should i Even care????? I mean yeah it's an exciting thing to go to college yes i know this. Yes i know it's going to be fucking hard great. Yes i know i need to go and get a damn education but HELL why does it matter where you got it from???? What does it matter where it is???? WHY WHY WHY?????????
So i'm totally not spell checking so if something is spelled wrong you know what?? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN
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2:58 PM
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Ok so I donno why but David can do the exact same thing I do and it will fix the problem but not when I do it. I don't get it. Sighness oh well. Anyway. Today wasn't bad. I did some yoga then went Frisbee golfing with my cousin, then went to bible study that was interesting. After was WNL and then the express game. It was nice seeing people at WNL. Paige and I might do some hot yoga classes together!! I think it would be really fun. We'll see what happens. So I'm going up to Arlington to work on my bros house this weekend how gay is it that I have to help. Goodness one would think James wasn't a lazy bum but he is. Ok so I don't feel like typing anymore so tootles!!
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9:21 PM
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having trobles with this thing so i might not update for a while sorry guys
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4:56 PM
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SO today was fun. I got up at 9 rather late for me ( I woke at 7:15 and kept waking up and going back to sleep). Aaron had called we talked for a while that was nice then I went canoeing with David and Sam much fun was had a tons of relaxing. (some worrying too but lets not go there) Now I'm just sitting at home. Though I want to ask y'all to pray for a friend of mine who has kidney failure. His name is Ricky and he really is a nice guy and needs y'alls prayers. I saw the notebook last night with my cousin. Very good I enjoyed greatly but it lacked the books knowledge of thoughts which was kinda vital for this story. Though it was still really good and sad I recommend seeing it. I've decided my cousin is the best and I just thought I would tell you that. Well I'm off. If anyone wants to see the notebook I'm totally up for seeing it again it was good.
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4:23 PM
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Well i'm going to be selfish and talk about me. Not that i normaly do something different but yeah. So Today. Lets see. I started out slow but then Anna and I took a skate around the block. Then we washed the cars in the driveway. We had a late lunch then went bowling which i suck at greatly lol. Then David my cousin and I are going to watch the Notebook and yeah thats my day isn't it exciting!!
tootles
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4:07 PM
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WOW I feel dumb. I was supposed to help at CrossRoads tonight and totally forgot until I read David and Sam's away messages. I can't believe I did that. I feel bad. It was my first time to help too. Gosh what is Mr. Jones going to think of me. Sigh. I missed bible study this past week too. My head just is not on straight If I didn't know better I would think I was on something. Goodness. Well I'm off to help cook and shoot fireworks. Bye
Happy 4th of July/ Independence Day
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4:22 PM
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Here are a few random quotes from a really cool e-mail they go along with some of my other posts or I just really liked them:
5. Some marriages are made in heaven, but they ALL have to be
maintained on earth...
7. Sorrow looks back, worry looks around, and faith looks up...
9. Words are windows to the heart.
11. It isn't difficult to make a mountain out of a molehill just
add a little dirt.
12.A successful marriage isn't finding the right person-it's
being the right person.
13. The mighty oak tree was once a little nut that held its
ground.
16. To forgive is to set the prisoner free, and then discover the
prisoner was you.
21. God gave the angels Wings, and He gave humans CHOCOLATE. Me added hehe-->(or just Johnny Depp in Chocolat hehe)
22. And last but not least (James' addition)-- God gets his laughs by
looking at "the impossible" in the rear-view mirror.
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4:14 PM
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The Hardest compliment I've ever tried to take was that I was needed.
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9:15 PM
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You know what amazes me? How you can know you don't like someone but all of their qualities are attractive. And somehow you kinda want them to hold you but there is a definite thought in your head not to get involved with them that way. It kinda bugs me. Mainly cuz I try to think of reasons not to get involved with them but I don't seem to find any but the fact that I know I don't feel that way towards them. Which I know for a fact is the worst thing you can do to a guy.( Is date them without being head over heels for them.) Cuz that's what they deserve. Truly I believe that every guy and every girl deserves someone that is head over heels for them because that is what makes the fight and the little surprises all worth it. Hum ok that's enough babble on that. This next week should be fun as long as the house stays clean. Monday I'm seeing the Notebook(read the book when A Walk To Remember came out) with my cousin David. Then that evening star gazing with Eric(I've missed him) Then Canoeing with David Tuesday. Wed. Is my dad's b-day and WNL at the pool. Then Thurs Sam has a party. And the weekend is still open. WOW I think that's the first time I've had the week planned out and the weekend open lol. Well I'm off to go watch Garfield. Call me tonight if you wanna talk (I would kinda like a deep convo this evening.)
Psalm 28:7
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.
Psalm 33:1
Sing joyfully to the LORD , you righteous; it is fitting for the upright to praise him.
Posted by Mary at
10:50 AM
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Hey everyone~
IT'S SUNNY!!!!!!!!! YAY FOR SUNSHINE!!!!! I'm totally going swimming today and I went skating with Anna!! It's great to be able to enjoy getting all hot and sweaty in the sun. My daddy comes home today also from London!!! I'm excited!! He's been gone a lot this summer weather it be in Arlington or what not I def miss him greatly. So I'll be hangin with David later today which should be fun. Hopefully we'll hang outside sense it's pretty but we may stick to cake bakin and a movie. Who knows. If you aren't busy next week lemmie know I wanna plan some stuff to do. So anyway if you are reading this you aren't enjoying the sunshine so get off your lazy bum and go enjoy the sun!!! hehe Tootles
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11:07 AM
