Wednesday, April 28, 2004
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Well I seem to love getting myself in trouble. I do it so often. lol. Don't ask what it is just know I wasn't thinking and spoke too soon. Though you know what??? God does things for a purpose I think I will just sit back and let Him lead me. For I know no better way to use what God gave you even if it was not what you meant to happen.
Psalm 23
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, [1]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
Psalm 31:3
Since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name lead and guide me.
Posted by Mary at
7:52 PM
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I am the most bi polar person I know. Ok so a min ago I was all hyper dancing around literally bouncing off the walls. Now I'm sitting here in utter joy all googlie eyed listening to my romantic sappy songs somehow enjoying being single but wanting to think of the person that all these sweet things are for. So subdued it's amazing. You know I almost wanna just dance take a flag or a flowy dancer dress and dance to this music not with anyone just alone on a stage while no one is watching type of thing. I am in such a floaty mood right now I love it serine happiness. Well I'm going to go bask in it I'll ttyl SMILE God bless
Yes I know I made up words leave me alone
Posted by Mary at
5:10 PM
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Stepping (no STOMPING) on my toes at bible study
Ok so this one person at bible study said something to the fact that if you are about to commit suicide and if you won't listen to reason that you should. OMGOSH talk about stepping on my toes obviously this girl had not taken psychology and even though she said she's been there I can't believe that she would say something like that and think something so evil as that. I mean seriously that's like telling anyone who has pulled through that it was all crap. Saying that anyone who thinks that has no hope. I can't think that. I can't say there's no hope. I've been there I KNOW there's hope. I came out and heck so did that person. How could she think there is no hope once you feel that way. Ok not only was that topic discussed they talked about the governments role in our lives and how they should not control our lives well HELLO they already do A and B if it's Gods law they are using then why not?? The Church isn't doing so good a job obviously. Oh then another person believed that abortions were wrong but is for pro choice. How can you do that?? I don't get it. Then they mentioned that Jesus died for the sin of Adam and Eve but not our daily sins well hell I'm in deep trouble then cuz I'm going to hell. Oh and to top it off it's the first study (including school) where I felt rather embarrassed and stupid. Granted that's not really anyone's fault but it toped of the worst bible study I've ever been to. Granted I know they should ask the hard questions and step on peoples toes but honestly this went to far for me. If I didn't' have the respect for the leader I honestly would have walked out of there. Sigh Ok I'm done I'll write more hopefully in a better mood.
Posted by Mary at
6:07 PM
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Hey Everyone~ Ok so before I get started I want to let y'all know the wonderful thing I did this morning hehe. I woke up too early but it was ok cuz I just layed in bed listening to the rain. I love doing that the only thing that would have made it better would be sitting there cuddled with someone I love. Not that that will happen anytime soon but ya know. It was so wonderful this morning hehe. Ok I know I haven't updated in forever but I've had a really bad week and I really hate complaining here it makes me feel worse I've decided. So does talking about it I always feel bad for complaining to others I donno why. But I like writing about it in like a letter or something and the faster I do that the better my day gets real quick. So I think I'm just going to do that then like burn the letter after I'm done or something. Well actually right now I'm writing Richard cuz I said I would so I can't burn that one. Anyway lets see my Sat got a LOT less hectic. Omgosh I was sooo worried about it all now the cemetery clean up was cancelled cuz of rain. Then my mom didn't wanna do the blue bonnet tea cuz I was busy. Then the class down at UT I couldn't contact my cousin to go with me and I don't wanna go down town alone I even know that there is a good chance of getting myself in a bad situation. So yeah I'm sitting home on the comp updating stuff listening to BEBO!!! Gosh I wish I could've gone to his concert tonight but I still have spring show. Number 8 really hits home for me. When you listen to it, hear the words and you will get a glimpse of not only my middle school years but the struggle I have from those years. I swear that was the worst time of my life. You know what's funny though? I wouldn't give it up for the world. My past has made me who I am. Whether I like who I am all the time or not. I'm not here for me not anymore anyway. I'm not worth it. I'm here for God. Only He can be worth going through this thing called life. Through all the trials through all the joy God's love is the ONLY thing that remains. People come people go, people change, people love, people hate, people will disappoint you. GOD will ALWAYS love, will NEVER hate, will REMAIN steadfast, will continue with you FOREVER. Well now I'm done with my novel hope you enjoy. Have the most wonderful day.
Nehemiah 1:5
"O LORD , God of heaven, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love
Psalm 36:7
How priceless is your unfailing love! Both high and low among men find [ 36:7 Or [ love, O God / Men find ] ; or [ love / Both heavenly beings and men / find ] ] refuge in the shadow of your wings.
Psalm 9:7
The LORD reigns forever; he has established his throne for judgment.
Posted by Mary at
8:58 AM
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
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Hey everyone okokok enough complaining about me updating when y'all don't update yours that's SOOO not cool. Anyway. Lets see Spring show is this week it's reallly fun to do though my costume is a tad see threw which isn't good but u can't tell from stage or at least I don't think so (hope). Humm what else to say. I donno so I'm stopping lol. Sorry guys not much of an update but maybe I'll do better later. Tootles
Job 5:11
The lowly he sets on high, and those who mourn are lifted to safety.
Job 11:18
You will be secure, because there is hope; you will look about you and take your rest in safety.
Posted by Mary at
7:20 PM
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Ok so I haven't updated for a bit so I'm updating now hehe. Playing tennis was Oh so much fun. He says I'm good at it though I donno. But it was over by the duck pond which is gorgeous. The rest of my evening was relaxed on the comp. I think I'm going to not allow myself to get on the net during the week at least until late evening. Cuz I ended up doing NO hw what so ever. That was BAD BAD BAD. I need to make Good grades this six weeks. Though last six weeks I made the best grades I ever have this year I guess not being online Helped A LOT lol. Today lets see woke up at leisure which was 8 lol still early but I feel good cuz I'm awake and all. Took a little jog but my mom wanted me home I think she was scared about me getting raped again. I don't know What is going on with them I guess they heard a story in their Sunday school class that scared them I donno but they are totally locking down on anything I wanna do. I don't like it at all, but what can ya do. Anyway. Welll I'm gonna go now I might update this evening. I hope everyone smiles lots and has a WONDERFUL day cuz God has blessed us with such a cool opportunity with 24hrs to LIVE.
OMGOSH I LOVE THIS VERSE Might have just become my second fav in the world!!!
Job 9:27
If I say, 'I will forget my complaint, I will change my expression, and smile,
this one is good too
Job 29:24
When I smiled at them, they scarcely believed it; the light of my face was precious to them.
Posted by Mary at
8:20 AM
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Hey People~
Ok so lets see what to write about. I got a sup profile thing it looks better than this dose lol. I think it's funny. I'll slowly make it better I figure the more I slowly update the better people will like it instead of all at once then it would get boring. So what's happened recently. I got asked on a date by this really sweet guy in my history class. I'm excited!! Travis bought me flowers cuz of my neck I felt really special all day cuz everyone asked me what they were. Thanks Travis!! It's Thereasa's Birthday SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Yeah my mind is a blank so I'm gonna leave now I hope everyone had the most wonderful day!
Job 39:13-18
13 "The wings of the ostrich flap joyfully,
but they cannot compare with the pinions and feathers of the stork.
14 She lays her eggs on the ground
and lets them warm in the sand,
15 unmindful that a foot may crush them,
that some wild animal may trample them.
16 She treats her young harshly, as if they were not hers;
she cares not that her labor was in vain,
17 for God did not endow her with wisdom
or give her a share of good sense.
18 Yet when she spreads her feathers to run,
she laughs at horse and rider.
Posted by Mary at
4:33 PM
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Ok so bad day so I'm not going to write much cuz I don't like complaining. So I'm not going to Eric and Steve's game tonight if u really wanna know why ask, but I'm not going. Ok I'm not going to have anything to say so ttyl byes
You ARE blessed, if only because you are alive and able to proclaim God's word!
Never forget that!
~Samantha
OMGOSH Thank you so much Sam that e-mail honestly brought me to tears def what I needed to hear on this "bad" day. I hope all is well for everyone. Smile lots!!
Job 5:17
"Blessed is the man whom God corrects; so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty.
Posted by Mary at
3:24 PM
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Lets see Mary does not know what to write about. I got online today how cool is that. I'm excited it was soooooo nice to talk to everyone again. I missed everyone. Anyway. My neck is not doing that much better though I did stop taking my strong meds so I guess it is cuz I don't have to take such strong meds but it still hurts. Enough of my complaining. I hope everyone enjoyed the break I sorta did. As much as I could we'll put it that way. Smile lots God Bless CHRIST IS RISEN!!!!!!<>< PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! "FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON THAT WHO SO EVER BELIEVES IN HIM SHALL NOT PERISH BUT HAVE ETERNAL LIFE" John 3:16
John 20:19-21
19On the evening of that first day of the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, "Peace be with you!" 20After he said this, he showed them his hands and side. The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord.
21Again Jesus said, "Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you." 22And with that he breathed on them and said, "Receive the Holy Spirit. 23If you forgive anyone his sins, they are forgiven; if you do not forgive them, they are not forgiven."
Posted by Mary at
6:43 PM
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Hey Peeps HAPPY EASTER!!!! It's raining and cold. My cute outfit didn't work so well sense it was sooo cold. It feels like mid winter here for us and yesterday it was like summer. Crazy Texas weather. OH well I kinda wanted it to get cold so we didn't have unbearable heat too soon ya know. My hair was a PAIN today. I got up really early to go wash and dry it then curl it and well it sooooo didn't work at all, it was just a huge mess. OH well. The service was odd for Easter and well I've had a lot of people tell me they didn't like it but ya know what. Maybe it spoke to someone. Parts of it spoke to me. I don't like how people are always I didn't like that service or this should change cuz I don't like it. I think that's stupid church is NOT about you. It's about worshiping God. Last I checked He didn't set a format that you must follow. There are different ways of doing things. I find it so odd that we are so strong about not being judgmental toward others and stuff like that but when it comes to things like religion we want it our way and no other. This so confuses me. MAKE UP YOUR MIND PEOPLE!! Gosh. Ok well now that's off my chest I feel better. Travis came over yesterday which was nice cuz I hadn't had a chance to hang with him in a LONG while way Too long. We talked about the Passion which was nice I really enjoying talking to him about things like that but it's better when we're alone when we talk like that. Then we played cards for a while and talked. I enjoyed myself I hope he did too. Then I talked to Richard as become habit hehe. I think I lost like 10 pounds just laughing last night lol. My abs hurt this morning lol. Anyway I'll let ya'll go and enjoy your Easter. SMILES!!!!! CHRIST IS RISEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<><
Mark 16:6,19
6"Don't be alarmed," he said. "You are looking for Jesus the Nazarene, who was crucified. He has Risen! He is not here. See the place where they laid him."
19After the Lord Jesus had spoken to them, he was taken up into heaven and He sat at the right hand of God.
Luke 24:50,51
50When He had led them out to the vicinity of Bethany, He lifted up His hands and blessed them. 51While He was blessing them, He left them and was taken up into heaven.
John 21:25
25 Jesus did many other things as well. If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written.
Posted by Mary at
8:37 AM
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Hello Mary is bored. We dyed eggs, I cleaned my room, went and got my red shirt with my mom, and took a nap. Not a lot. Mary be bored. Sigh. James is home. He kinda ruined my nap which wasn't nice, but oh well. He said my room was cool so it's all good lol. I'm such a dork, but what else is new. I looked at some short hairstyles today and decided that I think I'll leave my hair long. I like it better this way. Though I did find some easy funky things to do with my hair so that should be fun. I love my Easter outfit the shirt I got goes perfectly. I can't wait. I wanna go dancing, but not only is there no one or place to do that my neck would kill me, it doesn't like doing much at the moment which is probably why I'm so bored. My mommy gave me a book to read so I guess I'll go occupy myself with that now I hope everyone is enjoying this Easter holiday even though it's raining. Smile tons Tootles!! HUGS
Proverbs 16:3
Commit to the Lord whatever you do and all your plans will succeed.
Posted by Mary at
4:10 PM
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Funny quote Me:" you should move up north cuz it's pretty up there" Richard: " Nah with that logic I'll just move into your house" HAHAHAHA Good Times with corny pick up lines lol
Posted by Mary at
1:39 PM
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Hello everyone I hope everyone is enjoy this Easter holiday. I sorta am. I wish my neck would be better so I could do more but it is slowly getting there. I got my Easter skirt and shoes today it's a white skirt with cherry's on it :-D and I'm going to get a red shirt with it. I'm excited cuz I love cherry's. Anyway Good stuff hummm Richard and I talk a lot I think he's keeping me sane while I'm around my family too much hehe. ohoh Quote from Richard " I'm soo addicted to Mary" hehehe Quote from Mary " I'm addicted to Richard" Hahaha aren't we funny. Hehe. I think I'm more addicted to my pain meds lol. Not really I don't take them very often which is probably why my neck still hurts lol. So I think we're washing the car this afternoon and possibly going swimming though I'm not sure yet. cuz my mom didn't wash my swim suit and I'm not going out in a two piece right now just not a good thing to do. I really need to shape up before I even think about doing that. Which I guess I really better get on cuz it's that time of year. But you know it's rather hard to work out or anything when you have a hurt neck or at least that's my excuse at the moment. So if anyone is bored and my mom decides to be nice I would LOVE to get out of the house. But I can't drive cuz of my meds so don't expect me to. But call me e-mail me!! Have a wonderful day it's beautiful outside SMILE TONS!!
Ecclesiastes 3:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time.
Isaiah 52:7
How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, "Your God reigns!"
Posted by Mary at
1:08 PM
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WOW! My neck hurts A LOT. sigh. I took meds today at like 11 and I was Out until 5. I feel like I missed the whole day. :-( I haven't heard from anyone but Steve yesterday and Richard. I miss contact with the world. sigh. I have a bad feeling this is what my summer is going to end up being. Hummm. Well sense you now know my whole day I'll let ya'll be call me if you get a chance ( I don't think I'll be going to Eric and Steve's Game but I would really like to get out of the house so we'll see ) HUGs to all!!'
Mary
1 Chronicles 16:11
Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.
1 Chronicles 16:27
Splendor and majesty are before him; strength and joy in his dwelling place.
Posted by Mary at
4:14 PM
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Hey if you get bored call me i would love to talk to peeps!!
Posted by Mary at
2:04 PM
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Hey everyone~
I guess I have rather lots to update on don't I. Well lets start with Saturday. I went to help with the Easter Egg hunt at my church for 2 hrs that was pretty fun actually seeing all the little kids have fun on the moon jump. Though it was rather warm standing out then sun like that. But I think my arms got a little tanner cuz of it so it's all good. Then Richard came over and we got Eric and went to the duck pond which was really beautiful then the mall just to kinda hang out. Then off to dindin. We ate yummy Mexican at my house and then Richard brought Pics that we sorted through and talked in my room for hrs without realizing it was hrs lol. He then let me borrow more Bebo YAY!!!! And he went home. It was a rather pleasant day.
Sunday I got up early to go hand out palm branches at church which was fun. Then David and I drove to Waco to go to a church up there. Which we found out that they didn't obey the time change so we were there an hr early but that was ok we just drove around instead. The service was rather awesome though they didn't have the normal band so there was a few technical difficulties but that's ok. Then we went to Wendys for lunch and then eye glass shopping. He thinks I look fine in glasses while I tend to disagree. Then I went home. Chilled for a while and ate dindin then went to CR saw Derek and Sam David also didn't' have to work so he sat with us there also. It was an interesting service. I enjoyed. Then I got home and talked to Richard on the phone until like 12. It was fun. We couldn't stop laughing I think I lost 5 pounds just laughing lol.
Today. I turned my head to look at my clock and heard something squish in my head and then I couldn't turn my head back so I called in my mom and well she called her dad (who is a doc) and he said it might be a pinched nerve but I laid there for 6 hrs not moving cuz it hurt and nothing happened so I ended up getting up at 12 crying cuz it hurt so bad my mom took me to the ER and they said it was some muscle spasm or something like that and gave me strong meds to help which they did for a little bit but they are starting to wear off. :-/ anyway I was there for over 2 hrs it was kinda annoying though they did take x-rays and give me some prescriptions. Now I'm home about to do some ec for psy. I missed a physics project, some horrid precal stuff and a quiz or test in history and a test in ASL so I'm going to have TONS of make up work not fun. Oh well. Oh and I missed UIL for band but I didn't exactly wanna go to that anyway so yeah. So that's my catch up for y'all. Hope it didn't bore you too much. Have a wonderful day smile lots and God Bless
Exodus 15:2
The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise him, my father's God, and I will exalt him.
Deuteronomy 6:5
Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.
I didn't know that was in the old testament. I had always just seen it in the new testament. Amazing how God makes sure you catch things isn't it.
Posted by Mary at
1:46 PM
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Hey everyone~
The waterfight was GREAT. Though my rents are gone tonight and won't lemmie do anything until 9:30 and that's only if they aren't tired. Grrr. Oh well. Have you ever had the feeling you are meaner than u ever thought you really were?? How about knowing who you are yet you aren't who you thought. Humm well if not then you are lucky. Well I'm gone tootles.
Isaiah 26:10
Though grace is shown to the wicked, they do not learn righteousness; even in a land of uprightness they go on doing evil and regard not the majesty of the LORD .
Posted by Mary at
5:39 PM
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Hey Everyone guess what I got today!!!! MY PROM DRESS!!!!!!!! My g-ma sent it! It looks really pretty some small alterations have to be done but nothing big at all and I need to loose a little bit a weight which I was planning on doing anyway so no biggie!! I'm soo excited though it's sooo pretty and it goes really really really well with my skin tone but I do need to tan some hopefully I'll get that done too if not I'll just do a mystic tan or something like that. I donno how the hairstyle I picked out is going to look with it I hope well. I have my hair in the two buns and it kinda looks cool like that. I may look some more and find a funky prom style and go with that but I donno. Anyway Today lets see. I skipped morning band to make cookies which was actually really relieving. Though EVERYONE grabbing at them was not got rather irritating. I hit Eric cuz he was grabbing at them and I felt really bad cuz I hit him kinda hard and it was after he had a bad day. I felt really bad Julie is just growing too much on me all that aggression lol I'm just kidding it was totally me just lashing out. I'm SORRY Eric!!! Then classes. Precal went ok though I'm pretty sure I failed the test I took in there. Though I did get a chance to go to the library to print stuff out. I thought of Eric and Sam lol. Then I had history and we had a sub he was cool though the movie was boring. Ok so during the movie I wrote Steve like a full page note but through out the day TOTALLY forgot to give it to him. How much of a blonde am I Seriously. OH well I did get bunches of hugs from him which was good. And Cody told me some good news I was happy I was like smiling like the whole next class Hehe. Ok physics I got out early with Kristin because there was a sub in there too and all we were doing was watching a movie Yuck so we played cards instead hehe. Asl welll I made the cookies for them and said if they were quiet they could get some and they were but the guys around me HOLY COW you would think they never ate good cookies before. I mean Jeeze one of them tried to feel me up to get them I was like OH NO you didn't. Then I think they used EVERY trick possible to get the stupid cookies gosh. Never a moments peace when you have a box of cookies in your hands. ASL club was annoying so we're just not going to talk about that and pretend it didn't happen lol. I can't wait for the water fight tomorrow it should be LOTS of fun!!! Though it might rain but then we can just play in the rain so it's all good hehe. SO yeah that's all interesting things I have to say and once again Eric I"m sorry!!
2 Corinthians 7
10Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.
Posted by Mary at
5:15 PM
