Wednesday, March 03, 2004
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Ok so now I'm back from church I thought I would write another blog sense the last one was short and kinda dark. So here's a more motivational one. The topic in youth was service. I had told myself once I was out of band I would do mission work in it's place wellllll. That hasn't gone exactly as I would have wanted things just keep coming up or I forget you know how I am. So I'm not too sure what to do or when to do it. I've had a few really crazy weeks but this one was more calm I guess is one way of saying it. From my understanding these next ones will be calmer also. So I would like to go work at the RR serving center or volunteer someplace, but if you know me I'm rather shy and don't know how to go about just doing that. God calls us to serve him and I desire nothing more than to do what He ask's of us, but how do I start?? Where do I start. I mean I've done things with my church all the time but that doesn't mean I can sit there on my own and do something. What if my rents don't let me drive or what if when I get my job it conflicts. I just donno if I'm ready to take on things like this with hw and such. Yeah there is the summer but I don't want to wait that long to do things. Sigh. I guess if it was easy everyone would always do it. I just wish I had a way or I guess the will to get out there like I want to. Though something tells me wanting it isn't enough. I have no knowledge of what else I would need but wanting it isn't enough. This is something I rarely ask but if you're reading this would you please pray for me that I find whatever it is I need to do all these ideas I have stored in my head.
Posted by Mary at
7:17 PM
