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Hey peeps~
It's amazing the more self searching I do the more things I find out about myself that I don't like. I know people tell you that you're wonderful but they don't see what you see. It's odd that I figure out things now too. I just started really hanging out with bunches o people and having tons of fun but now that I figured out what I did I want to hide in a whole and fix it before I see anyone else. But the weird thing with that is I have to be around people to fix it. Hummm well I guess time and Prayer will have to fix this one. Though that would be how most of my problems get fixed amazing how God does that right. I wish I knew what was next. I wish I knew why here why now. I know those are questions that should really just be left alone time will tell and nothing anyone can say will improve those questions but I think this is the first time I've completely fallen down from the mountain(well it feels more like a cliff) Everything seemed to be going so well why question now. I don't get it. But I know I'm not supposed to get it. (ok I'm starting to hate this being smart thing and knowing all the answers to my questions but it not feeling any better) [some how I can hear someone saying welcome to growing up] sigh I don't think I wanna. But if I don't I get left behind. I guess I just get to deal with it. Sigh well enough complaining sorry this was so depressing. I think most of my blogs are. I treat this more like a journal than something that others read. I guess I shouldn't do that. It does something I don't like. Well we shall see what happens.
Proverbs 3: 5,6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Posted by Mary at
9:13 PM
